my unhealthy life

God, my life in the third year in IF's killing me step by step :(

hungry

this afternoon, i went back to my dorm because my ai3 has expired so i cannot browsing in campus. i went back with a hunger in my stomach. so, i asked tyas' nugget and went downstairs to cook it. when i was in the kitchen, i checked the rice cooker with a bunch of hope that there'll be rice for me. but, i was wrong, the rice cooker was empty :(
so i cooked three nuggets and ate it with sauce. i still feel hungry but i'm not in the mood for eating anymore.
ahh, tonight's my major community LPJ will be held. and i have an assistance appointment (i'm the assistance hehehehee :D )

thanks God

many things that can be grateful about our life. it doesn't matter in which family we've born. poor, rich, or maybe for you who've never met your parents. our life that've been given by God is always the best. i remember my friend's friend's tumblr said, "God doesn't give us what we want because He knows what's best for us"
and, lately, i agree with that quote. i've been a spoiled girl since i was born. but when me and my friend's 2010 bday bash resolution had happenned this month. i realized that, all the life (family, health, friends, etc) that i've got 're the best things that God had given to me.
there are many people who dosn't have what i had. for example, a family that i have. the 2010 b'day bash theme is charity. and when i went to the orphanage, my heart felt ashamed. those kids don't have anything but other's help. when i was looking at them, i remembered my stupid-and-spoiled-do like getting mad at my dad when he hasn't bought me an iPod yet or when my mommy didn't cook my favorite food and the others stupid-and-spoiled-do. auww, i felt soo soo sooo ashamed.
how can i be such a jerk for a long time?
i wish that me and my friends project will be very helpful for them. amin.

my perspective

i have my own perception about some thing that girl shouldn't do. i'm not that perfect girl who always do something with ethics and "tata krama". and i've done things that makes another person unpleasant too and think the negative way.
but, one thing that i really want to say is, it's not okay if you're hanging out from late night until morning with so many boys while you're the only girl. i'm not judging that those men're not good. but, you're a girl and we still live in east country who still stickle to the old rules.
well, that's just my advice ;;)

deadline

deadline! i hate friday. because friday is always a deadline time in my major. i know that i shouldn't complain about this. but, surely, it's getting bored because at thursday night i often sleep at campus and the day after (friday morning), i end up catch a cold.

something comes in mind

this night's my bestfriend's b'day bash. me and my friend surprised her when she was doing her task. we turned off the lamp and she yelled, "turn it on, please!" and then, TARARARAA, we sang happy bday to her and the-emergency-cake was given. she blew the candle. and when it comes to the first-cake-for-the-most-special-person part, she stared to the entire boy in the room. and she didn't know to whom she'll give the cake.
what comes in my mind is, who made the first-cake-for-the-most-special-person part at everyone's b'day bash? who started it first? because i thinks it's unimportant if we think all of our friend's 're the most important person in our life (beside our family, of course).

well, that's just something comes in my mind.
i'm doing my task and i'm getting bored. it's 2AM in the morning and it's my bed time so i cannot think clearly :(

is it the life that i want?

i've asked that question(s) too many times. and i've always answered with, "yes, this is the life that i want."
maybe at first, i answered that to create a positive thinking in mine. but lately, i've thought, "maybe it's the best for me."
so, my thought's may be i can be a fashion designer and a web programmer too >:)

this all-programming-things never comes to my head and now i live in it. 24/7/30 days. what a life!
"rejeki di tangan Tuhan, B!" who knows that maybe my luck is being a singer in the future? LOL